Some days...

Some days don't you just feel like this....

I hope you're wearing green today....

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY TO ALL!

The Cranberries - Dreams

video for the day =:x

The Cranberries - When You're Gone

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I Did It...

Well I did it. My hair is blonde again and I cut all my bangs off! It's hard for me to stay the same and well with the bangs- it's a new start. My life is so crazy right now I needed it. All I have to say is in the words of Billie Jean, "What's fair is fair." ........

Memphis Weather AGAIN

It's crazy right now. We're having very severe thunderstorms with hail up to 2". It sounds like my windows are gonna break. The picture is not of Memphis but that's what it looked like outside my front door.

Unknown Hinson on today's rock guitarists

The show was great!

Unknown Hinson

I went to see Unknown Hinson last night. It was an awesome show. If you don't know who that is, he does Early Cuyler's voice on the squidbillies (I have a clip from one of the cartoons in my Jan. posts). And yes he really sounds like that. It kicked ass. I hung out with friends, listened to some good music, and had a couple of beers. The only problem was this stupid fucknut drunk guy, well as JWoo put it, "The only shitty part about the show was this one dipshit asshat. He thought he was funny with his fake skullet, measuring tape suspenders and Squidbillies one liners. To this guy I have one thing to say, YOU ARE NOT FUNNY!" I had to quote you J. You said it best. That was an asshat! But over all the show kicked ass......

Animals...

Here's a few more pictures. The rest are on my MySpace.

Still unemployed but I did go to the zoo....

Well I'm still unemployed. I've been looking everyday but still no luck. I've even been looking outside of Memphis. I kind of have to. There's not a whole lot here and if there is I don't really qualify. My whole life is stressed! On the up side, I went to the zoo on Tuesday. It's free between 2 & 4 and since I don't have a job, I got to go. It was a beautiful day, somewhere between 65-70 and there were tons of people there. I haven't gotten to go to the zoo in forever. I had a good time even though it is sad to see them in cages....

They had a short life......

They were happy little snowmen that met their tragic fate to soon. I will miss you little snowmen.

Fun Times.....

It really happened. Memphis managed to get 6 inches of snow (maybe even alittle more). When I got up this morning the yards where still covered but the streets were fine. My friend Rob and I got out today and played in it. He needed someone to play in the snow with him. I gladly excepted. I had a blast. I wish it snowed more here. I'm not very good at building big snow men so we built little ones instead. Mine is the one that looks normal. His kind of looks like a little pig in the face. A few of the neighborhood kids came by and had a snowball fight with Rob too. I was trying to build my snow man so I didn't participant.(Rob is the one in the pic making a snow angels) Sadly it's all melting and Rob's snowman seems to have taken a nasty fall off the table :( I'll have to share pictures of that too. Thanks Rob for hanging out today and running around town with me. OH I GOT TO DO THAT TOO. Today was the first day I got out of the house in almost 2 weeks. I went and got my new Vampire Count army and some new paints from the bunker. YAY! Now I just have to put them together. Snow and a new army in one day- AWESOME!

It's Really Snowing

I took this standing at my front door (not the greatest picture).I was going to get out and drive today for the first time in almost 2 weeks but when I opened the door it was snowing. That was about 2pm. It's 6:10 now and still coming down pretty hard. We're getting a mix of sleet and snow. I guess I'll see what it looks like in the morning. I wish it wasn't so cold out, I'd go play in it...

CONFINED...

I hate being confined to my house. I feel so frustrated just waiting. Waiting on life, my health, and job to be normal (or as close to normal as anything can be). I'm without a job- thanks for selling us GW, and I can't really get out to look for one yet. I need to get my online portfolio done but my scanner is broken so I have to find a scanner (with all the graphic designers I know you'd think they'd have one but sadly no). Not being in control of your own life sucks! Waiting sucks. I have alot of patience too but a person can only take so much and everything has hit me at once or I guess it's fair to say it's contiuned this way since Januray (one thing after another- I need NORMAL for awhile without any bad things happening).......

~Restless Night~

I can't sleep again. I had this issue last night too. I think I finally fell asleep at 12:30 but woke at 3 and then couldn't fall back asleep until 5ish. I'm tired but my mind won't rest. So many thoughts... At least I'm getting better everyday. Slowly I recover. My body is trying to piece it's self back together. I guess time to try again, it's almost 1.



"Colors drained from the day first
then blackness ate from the edges
to the center
shutting down my vision
but not my thoughts
Restlessly tossing
letting my mind pull me
into the surreal
then wandering lost
through slippery landscapes
made entirely of illusions
The sun began pushing
the night from the sky
and my thoughts kept chasing around
in smaller and smaller circles
seeking answers
that fit like a faithful
denim shadow
Hearing from the wind
ghostly exhalations
shadows escaping
and blending into dawn
Answers appear and vanish
only to reappear
covering the illusions
believed to be truths
with clarity"

Happy Eating........

FOOD! You never know how much you enjoy something until you can't have it. I haven't been able to eat real food in almost 2 months. Hummus, wheat bread, lunchables, mac & cheese, and maybe a few other things... that's it. That's what I've been eating for 2months. Over the weekend I was able to enjoy pizza, chinese, mexican and OMG it was wonderful. Being able to eat without throwing up afterwards is a great thing. At this point being able to eat again is almost better than sex. I SAID ALMOST! Happy eating to all :)

How can something the size of a softball be inside your body and you not know it....

The Cranberries - Just my Imagination

Ok so here's one more....

The Cranberries - Ridiculous Thoughts

My song for today..... I love the Cranberries

I'm Alive.....

Well I'm alive. I made it thru my surgery. I'm taking it one day at a time and getting better everyday. I'll spare the details of this one but I will say this, I've never woken up from something and thought i was in the worst nightmare of my life. The pain I felt when I woke was unbelievable. All I could say was it hurts so bad, over and over again waiting to wake. But then the nurse said, "you're just waking up from surgery", and i wanted to die.
I've been home Thursday and making small progress everyday. I feel like I've had to start all over again. I can only take small steps and I'm using a cane. I'm getting in and of the bed on my own now but I still need help with some thing. Everything I've taken for granted that I could do by myself before that I can't do now, I'll definitely appreciate it more once I can do it again.
I'll make it. I just have to take it slow and my body lets me know what I can and can't do. BIG THANKS to my mom and Sunni. I couldn't have done as well as I have without their help. Thank you guys.